'I Am Not Afraid, I Am Not Ashamed'
Part mantra, part murder mystery - I Am Not' started as something I'd repeat to myself when I felt overwhelmed or hopeless - an assertion that reminded I've been through worse and have proven stronger than I'd ever hoped.
We shot in my Grandma’s Connecticut backyard, rented some stadium lighting and a gas powered generator that sounded like a motorcycle. Perhaps the neighbors were my Grandma’s age and had similarly dulled hear, a snore somehow heard over it all as we started filming at 9 p.m. and didn’t finish until 2 a.m.
I was extra anxious as this was actually the first video I’d ever shot - not only did I not know how to stand in front of a camera but also in front of my friends who were making this happen behind the scenes. For the first time, I had orchestrated myself into the center of things and proclaimed that not only do I want to do this but I can.
So don’t worry, I haven’t cut my hair - we filmed this in November, 2009.
I’d originally released this as the lead single for my first EP, ‘The Dissonance' in early 2010 - that Summer it spent 20 weeks on MTV Logo's, 'The Click List' eventually hitting #1. I credit this with helping me start my initial fan base and strong support in my fellow LGBT Community.
After self-releasing another EP in 2012, ‘The Thawing' I launched a Kickstarter campaign to re-record all 10 of these songs in a proper studio with my excellent live drummer, Brendan Finnegan. I still played all of the other instruments but instead of doing it in my low-fi studio apartment, I was using top notch gear at a professional studio in Times Square.
The result is my self-titled debut LP, ‘Brett Gleason' and with that, 'I Am Not' 2014 - so far we've re-done 2012's 'Calculated' and made a whole new video for 'Imposter' - coming up next will either be 'Futile & Fooled' or 'Destruction’, I cant’ decide….